disaster at their side.


I've spent my days as of late, realizing that I want to be a better man.  I find myself not struggling as much, but instead, i've got a firm foothold.  Not saying I'm not messing up, I am.  However, it's getting easier to make the right choices.  

I read, that the only true end to a passion is death.  I have only a few passions in this life.  I can count them on two fingers.  One of which, I'm still waiting patiently for.  The other, I'm trying to work on fervently.  

I've been on 2 dates in a year.  I never want to hear Ashley tell me I need to concentrate on myself more, and stop looking for a girl.  It sickens me, when she says such foolish words.  

I was unsettled by my phones unfortunate and imminent problems tonight.  My mother had called right after it had gotten me in the foul mood.  I let it out on her a bit, I'm not proud of this by any means.  She's trying to help me get a newer phone.

I just want to be the man I need to be.  I'm not shutting down, I've just decided to change CEO's... The change isn't effortless, but it is straightforward.  I pray that others will follow.  

I'm avoiding going to Charlotte because I know I'll find myself in India's bed again.  

I enjoy talking with Hailey.  Her and I used to fight to no end.  As of late....we've been getting along pretty well.  Some issues still cause words of confrontation, but for the most part.  We're starting to see eye to eye and finally not speak with each other holding judgement in each word.  She's very... intriguing.  

Raelyn and I need to hang out more.  It's a shame she's in Charlotte.  I really enjoy her company, and when we are with one another I'm overjoyed.  I've never experience such lush conversation with anyone, let alone an attractive female.